I never thought of myself as being afraid until she asked me what I was afraid of. Then, I thought if I'm not afraid then what am I? It must be it. I think I'm generally afraid of being vulnerable and getting a bad reaction. It hasn't happened but a year later my body still expects the worst. I don't always tell her about it because unfortunately I'm a little used to it. I hate it and the frequent bathroom stops it causes before my session. I'll try deep breathing.

I've noticed I don't talk a ton about my feelings. She has told me that. Then, I saw another T. for a consult and she said the same thing - I was in reporter mode. In both cases I was nervous. I'm hoping if I can take out the nervous feelings, I can be more myself and more expressive. Unfortunately, the emotion I'm most comfortable expressing is anger due to my past.