I feel like I've given up now. Just submitted to it. I cant stay out of bed and dont care enough not to. I know that causes depression but Im so far past caring. Im not even suicidal any more, just floating along in a deep dark sea of depression.

Im spending my days colouring in and watching tv shows, as encouraged by my pdoc but I just feel so useless.

Realising that no one is really happy.... I just cant deal with the unhappiness like other people. I am a weak willed and minded person or I would have been out of this already. Im putting my friends through worry because Im a shell of a person. I hate it so much.