Thank you i will try writing them down i just feel like i am mocking people with actual eating disorders like i am faking everything and also i am worried that they might tell me to stop doing all of this i couldnt resist exercising again tonight and i feel like i havent done enough and like i have eaten way to much even though i guess i havent really but it is just weird because i am used to binge eating almost constantly and ugh i just feel like a fake like maybe i am just being dramatic.