Than k you so much for your reply and kind words.

(((((elin95)))))

You do not need to buy anything to start meditation.

A good place to start is here:

Free Guided Meditations | UCLA Mindful Awareness Research Center

Start with the five-minute breathing meditation.

I'm glad that you saw her and that she showed you that she still cares about you! What is your current thinking and feeling about having seen her?