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Originally Posted by Bill3
Than k you so much for your reply and kind words.
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You do not need to buy anything to start meditation.
A good place to start is here:
Free Guided Meditations | UCLA Mindful Awareness Research Center
Start with the five-minute breathing meditation.
I'm glad that you saw her and that she showed you that she still cares about you! What is your current thinking and feeling about having seen her?
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Thanks alot for the link Bill! iīm going to try it tonight! maybe i can also use it when i get panic attacks
Maybe i should tell a little more about yesterday. I was in the mall because I had to buy some stuff. every time I go to the mall Iīm afraid because I might see her, since she lives pretty close to me.. like 10 minutes away with the car and she goes to that mall often. But i canīt avoid the mall since there is no other mall around, or i have to take the train to a place far away
so i was walking and then i saw her, i looked closer because sometimes I think I see her and then itīs not her. but i saw it was her and my heart dropped, instant panic feelings. started sweating.
I turned around and tried to walk away, praying that she wouldnīt see me. But then she said my name and I almost died. I could not breath. She came to me and hugged me, and for a moment I thought this is not real. Itīs a dream. She said that she was so glad to see me, that she was wondering how iīm doing and how good i was looking. I was impressed by myself, that I could still talk normal while my heart was racing and I almost started crying.
But i was completely overwhelmed. She said that she wants to email more often and that she sometimes talk to students in class who have bad grades due laziness. I had bad grades but turned it around the last year and had amazing grades, just because i wanted to make her happy. She says im an example for kids who struggle with their grades. I was so glad to hear that she still think of me.
When i came home i cried, i cried so hard and i was shaking, couldnīt breath. But now i feel really happy that i have seen her, but also sad because now sheīs totally in my mind again. And i tried to block her out of my mind sooooo hard sorry if itīs too long and if my english sucks. x