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Originally Posted by hankster
I think the point of this thread is more to accept the OP's definition or usage of the term core belief, and then proceed to answer her questions about changing them, rather than a philosophical discussion. That seems hurtful and distancing to me? I mean, yeah i am the biggest hijacker on the site probably, but i feel like my t would say i was evading the question by going off on these tangents. They serve as distractions, but they avoid answering the question. What core belief are you in therapy to change if any and have you succeeded? Is it an easy question? No. But i think its an important one. Do we know what it is when we start therapy? Probably not. We work to even discover it.
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Thanks hankster!
I really do need help with the actual mechanics of it.
It was a very difficult thing for me to admit to myself as true because my.mom uses to threaten to kill. Herself all the time because I was "impossible to.love and would suck the life out of anyone and should not have been born"
What my T is saying is not the same but to.me the "never enough" SOUNDS like what my mom said. For about 20 minutes after I read the email I was seriously considering just walking downstairs and euthanizing myself ....it was very hard to get my head around that it's not the same. I'm still swinging back and forth with that. .
So I have THAT to deal with
But then I am also trying to fix that broken part of me that rejects all the love people show me. Because it hurts me and because I don't want the people I love to feel that way. So far all I have figured out is to slow down my thought and carefully analyze each idea and to try to consciously reject the thoughts of being unlovable. But it's such a core part of who i.am that if I'm not ruined and unlovable and inhuman...I feel like I literally lose my identity. It seems close to impossible but I want to believe it's not.