Elin95,

I just wanted to stop by and say, do what feels right for you. Listen to your intuition. Only you know the ins and outs of your situation.

Jiminy, had it right! Let your subconscious be your guide. ~ Jiminy Cricket

In the end, we are all human, living our lives the best way we can. We give advice because we care or have been through something similar. I like the meditation idea. Being in your own quite it tough at first, or it was for me, but it's really helped me to relax and reflect. There are several guided meditations on Youtube, The Honest Guys being my fave.

Lastly, if my suggestion was a little too aggressive, I apologize.