I tend to look around when I'm talking but then I make eye contact at pauses or when she's talking. I have told her how much I enjoy it. I don't think I had much eye contact as a child so it feels awesome. It's like she's piercing my soul, "holding" me with her eyes, etc. I want to look but at a point it becomes painful - like too good? I feel like I'm getting a corrective experience, attunement, catharsis, etc. with it. It's not always easy but I get more out of looking at her in the eyes than others.

I don't feel like I have a problem with eye contact in general though. I agree, I feel like I can think better when I'm not having a "moment" with her eyes. lol