I always got told when I was young and painfully shy that I was "antisocial" and people would "hate me" for avoiding eye contact. It's very hard because when I talk about certain things in therapy I look at the ground because it's too intense, but I feel that conflicting worry come up in me that looking at the ground makes me antisocial and rude. I think some things are just way too intense. When I ask my therapist something I know she's going to react to or I feel ashamed saying, I just can't look at her.