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And the only thing that is working is me saying that it is all my fault.

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hmm....doesn't seem to be working

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[b][i] but why me. Dont wish it on anyone else, but WHY.

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No one know why. Why did my grandfather abuse me and not my sister? Maybe because I was an easier target - I was more emotional, more craving of affection, had less self esteem. Maybe he knew I wouldn't say anything.

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And it wasn't even that bad. Not anything as bad as most of you have experienced. I should stop complaining.

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I could have the most tragic thing in the world happen to me, but my pain would be the same as your pain. The circumstance isn't what matters, it's the feelings you are left with.

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Numb. Please just let my emotions be numb.
No more emotions, please.

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Sometimes we feel too much all at once and it's okay to take a break from it - but you don't need to be numb. Find something you enjoy that can take your mind of this. Read a book, go for a walk in the woods, lay outside with the warm sun on your face, go to the gym, whatever can be a distraction.

(((((((Canders)))))))))

Tranquility