let me explain the whole story. i have tried 12 psychologists/psychiatrists but i only stayed with 4. the main reason was money issues. 2 years ago i found a place where i didnt have to pay. the thing is she has done nothing for me. i actually think im worst.. sooo i decided to search for alternative treatments. among them was coaching, hypnosis and neurofeedback.
as i posted neurofeedback wasnt possible caz is too expensive and my insurance refused my request to pay some.
i tried life coaching with the little money i had but i think it was missing the psychology part and to be honest they work with goals and i have no idea what i want of this world anymore.

so i kept searching for a place to help me with hypnosis. i found this place where they charge less for people that have financial issues. i went to a meeting and thats where the woman said i was playing therapies. she probb said that caz i mentioned i have loads of exp. i told my T and she was shocked with what this woman said to me. she even said "if it were easy for people to change they wouldnt need help!"

i moved on to the next. this ***** also makes exceptions for people with financial issues. i got excited she wanted to help me but right away she said " if i see ur not whiling to change im done with u". guess she only needed one session to tell me to **** off!!!
i know im quite resistant but **** i dont do it consciously!!!! IM ****ED UP thats why I NEED HELP! so what? ur too ****ed up for me to help so THERE IS NO POINT????? should i just off myself??

im REALLY tired of trying to get I NEED. is like what i need nobody can give. or maybe what i want, they cant give. who tha **** knows anymore..