It was a sad and embarrassing thing today to have to tell one of my husband's friends I lost my job. I hated myself and my whole life. However, I forced myself to go to the unemployment office and apply for unemployment benefits. I was scared to death the whole time because I can still remember a bad experience I had at the unemployment office in 1992. Thankfully, things were different today. The people at the unemployment office were kind and helpful.

They gave me a recommendation to apply for a job at the Coca Cola company. I went to apply for a job as a route accounting clerk. Part of me hopes I get the job. Part of me is afraid to fail again. I need a job to help pay the bills, but I can't stand the thought of failing at anything else. My husband thinks I should take more time off and recover from all the stress. I prayed that I can get a job that I can handle and be successful at.