Hi IamRover,
Thanks for sharing your background and current situation with us. Although I can't relate too much about imagination, can I just say it's great that you're taking a bold step and sharing this with strangers. Also, just as another piece of encouragement - can I say that you seem very intelligent and you're able to get your points across clearly.
With regards to laziness - now there's something I can definitely relate to. This is mainly at the core of my problem, even when I'm feeling well for an extended period of time. The laziness can build up over important life matters and affect my depression in a bad way.
Recently though, in fact, this week, I came across the following article from vital, who is on these forums. As soon as I tried this I felt empowered and so far I find that it's a great way to combat laziness and depression as a whole.
I was sceptical at first by the whole 'snapping fingers', but amazingly, and bizzarly, I have found this to work. Remember that it's fine to start off small with small decisions.
If you decide to give it a try, let me know how you get on.
http://egg.bu.edu/~youssef/SNAP_CLUB...0164151576.pdf