Most of the time I am not able to look her in the eyes. I want to, but it's just too intense and scary for me, and I end up looking at the wall whole session long. If she sits closer to me, or touch/hold me, I can look her in the eyes, though it's still very intense. At those moments she feels so familiar and "mine" that it makes me feel hypnotised. It's like I can't keep my eyes of hers.