i have held in so much for so long. now i feel as if my head will explode. so many things not dealt with. so many things pushed to the side. so many things tucked away where as not to be seen. so much so that now it's just a huge being in and of itself knawing away at me from the inside. so much that i dont even know where or how to begin to sort it all out. i dont know the beginning from the end. i feel consumed by it. but i know i am inside there somewhere, just can't find me.

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