This has been posted with me in mind too!! There are parts of me that kinda crave T's attention, comfort, understanding, and calmness. Yet others despise all of it! They don't despise her just the feelings that others have regarding her. They think it's ridiculous and stupid to want to seek her comfort or understanding or to even text her with a problem when triggers happen. There are others that feel like it should be no big deal. Like who cares if one likes the comfort she brings us or not. Some just talk and that is enough without feeling anything towards her or for her. Others hide behind some others when doing EMDR so that when she taps our knees they can be close to her. Trying to get to the point where everyone can have their own way of feeling and dealing but others that disagree should not interfere with work or progress. That is hard. Last session it came out that someone feels uncomfortable that T said " she thought of ( the host ) over the weekend" and didn't want T to think of her (host) and T explained that though she is a T and i / we are client it will happen that she thinks of her clients as situations arise that are similar to what she has experienced in her daily life. T said we have to experience and learn to tolerate uncomfortable feelings. It certainly isn't easy....