i used to be able to write poetry. things would just randomly come into my head that were so perfect, and i would have to write them down right away or they'd get lost forever. i never knew really what caused that because it literally took no effort to write. any time i did try to make myself write, it never happened. i think that would be about the only thing that came to me from dissociation since years ago it was an ongoing issue pretty much 24/7.

and now years later since i am dissociating a lot less than during those years, i lost the ability to write. things stopped coming out, and my head is mostly quiet compared to then as well..so i think there definitely was a link, but it wasn't anything i sought out to learn/access because i also thought i had zero creative ability/talent..and writing isn't necessarily something 'amazing' compared other things...although i do miss writing and having that ability because i don't have positive coping skills anymore when difficult times happen and feel like at least that would allow things to come out in a constructive way instead of lock things in.