Hi, there.

So...

I don't feel emotion (unless it's depression, or the fleeting joy of hearing a joke or reading something funny). I'm the type of person that can walk away from any relationship without a second thought. I've realised this early on (years ago), and put it down to being a good thing -that I can move on with little regret.

Until today.

I recently lost a friendship that was extremely important to me. It means nothing to me, now. Like a phase passed.

Am I really that... cold? How am I not mourning our broken friendship? Why don't I care? I'm the type of person that can walk away if I chose, and not look back. And realisig this, and that I've done it many times, scares the hell out of me! How can anyone be that cold, that heartless, and to think that person is me.

I understand if you think me a bad person after reading this. I won't blame you. In fact, you would be sharing my thoughts (I would say feelings, but, you know, those are rare for me)

Has anyone at all felt this way? Please. I need to know if I'm not the only with an iceberg for a heart.

Thank you for reading.
Regards,
Lexa.