U r not alone. I am the same. I was a very sensitive child but after being use and abused an kept losing everything that mattered, I stopped attaching to anything or anyone. It's not something I can control. It's how I was made to protect myself from being hurt. I control the hurt and pain of loss now. Now others are at my mercy. I have the power and I will never relinquish it again. I don't find it a bad thing. We just need to learn balance and not to do it too often. U see it as cold but I see it as a logical way to live.

I've already lost so many ppl I kno and I'm only 29. If I attached myself to friends an others I would hurt all the time. Ppl leave ppl die ppl become very mean and greedy. I am unaffected by it all now. I can go on and live and work and feel no remorse or sadness for those lost. Some say it's not a way to live or it's not living at all. I say screw u. U want to feel all that loss be my guest I guess ur stronger than I on that level.