Tomorrow is when I have to decide whether or not I want to do PHP at my family session with T. I honestly don't want to go to either, but at this point I don't know if I have a choice. If I don't want to do either then I'll probably have to sign a stupid contract that says I'll keep myself safe. I don't want to sign those things again, they make me feel trapped, like I have no control over myself.

And what if I decide not to show up at partial one day? What will they do to me? There will probably be days that I don't want to go. Is there going to be another contract thing with it? I really hate those.

Maybe I can just act like everything is fine and everyone will just go away...