I'm doing better than a week ago, when I started this thread. I was so frustrated and conflicted and didn't know how to change that. A lot has happened since. I've sorted some things out and made some important decisions. I'm glad that's of my chest.

Which leads to... me being exhausted. I sleep a lot and I'm taking things slow. I'm too tired of even thinking about calling T. I don't think I need him so much anymore right now. I think I've gotten through it, for now anyways.

My vacation is coming up soon. I can really use the break. And I'll see how it goes when I get back. I'll deal with it later. Now I just need to rest.