So it's been nearly three months since I last saw/spoke to my old therapist. I've been considering seeing him again, as I've been extremely depressed and non-fucnctional. Yes, you can relate some of that to still be being sad about how things ended between us, but it's also because I feel like I have no idea what I'm supposed to be doing with my life. Every day feels the same. I liked him initially beacuse he's always been so harsh and honest with me. I feel like it would be the wake up call to really get things together in my life.

Or...I could just be using an excuse to talk/see him. Maybe. I realize I might have to be prepared to talk about how ending our relationship affected me. Not sure if I even want to go there, as he seemed pretty dismissive about my feelings for him. Granted, HE is one that had said he wanted to have sex with me, but wouldn't, because of boundaries. Not sure how I'm supposed to face him after all this time, knowing that information.

Maybe it wouldn't be a good idea to see him again, but I feel my current psychoanalytic therapist isn't a good match. We don't TALK much. I don't feel accomplished coming out of there. Not sure what to do. There's a part of me that's almost too embarrassed to have him see me now. I've gained almost ten pounds since I last saw him. I don't feel attractive at all. I know that shouldn't matter when it comes to therapy...but it does.

For reference, here is my post regarding my last interaction with my old therapist (if you scroll down, you'll see the texts that transpired):

http://forums.psychcentral.com/psych...erapist-4.html