The thing that depresses me the most is my shame. I am so tired of carrying around this feeling that I don't deserve to be alive. It's not a suicidal feeling, just this feeling that the universe made a mistake in ever creating me.

I have done some things I am not proud of in my life, but I only did them because I just wanted some relief from the pain.

I am going to see my therapist today and talk about this. I am just worn out!

--Killian