I'm sorry you're going through such stressful times. Maybe it's a blessing that your mom isn't responding right now. It sounds like she along with the rest of your family, is incapable of empathizing with what you're going through. Be proud that you have achieved independence and don't let them take that away from you with their negativity.

CANDC and MiguelsMom have given you great advice, especially the part about making an appointment to see a therapist. Go to the ER if things start get to the point where you want to do something irreversible.

That was interesting, what you said about pulling in emotional pain to distract from your own. I never thought of it that way.

Welcome to PC. Keep posting.