My nerves are already working up. I have therapy tomorrow. I see her twice a week. But she's leaving for vacation, so I will miss both of my sessions next week. I really considered canceling tomorrow's session.... but couldn't bring myself to actually do it. She requires 24 hours notice to cancel.

I just want to say my session on Monday was, well, to me, a disaster. I practically shut down. I was curled up in a ball on the couch not engaged in my session at all. I just sat there and visibly shook. I've been telling her things I've never told a soul about my past. And the anxiety is getting the better of me. I seriously felt sick. She let me stay after my session was over to get a grip on myself...while she did some paperwork type stuff. After 5 minutes, I felt ready....thanked her, and left. I wasn't even on the road more than a few minutes and I really felt sick. I pulled over and threw up on the side of the road. I have NEVER felt that way before over nerves. I had a hard time getting my nerves back in check after that session, I was still shaky 8 hours later.

So now I get to do it all over again tomorrow. I'm thinking about asking for an easy session (whatever that is) since I won't be seeing her again for a week and a half.

I'm just curious...has anyone else ever felt this way, or had this physical reaction, during or after their sessions? My gosh, am I going to need to start keeping a pail in my car or what??? I feel like such a basketcase in there, but my nerves are seriously SHOT!