Oh wow, well done you!!

I know because I told her and she liked my comment but didn't reply or anything. Plus the fact that she's well out of my league!! And also, even though we have been facebook friends a long time, she probably still just thinks of me as a fan (I know her from when she was on tv years ago) We don't talk and I doubt she pays any attention to anything I post either, we haven't even met, I could have actually but I was too nervous so made excuses. I'm an idiot, I know!

And I'm so suspicious and paranoid about Bill right now. I think he's playing us all. I still love him, but I think he knows what he's doing. I know too much about the music industry that I can see through it. It's not a bad thing, but it's getting annoying. I try to defend him everyday and its all for nothing anyway, no one listens or cares and I'm sure he doesn't care either. Let him defend himself, unless thats the whole point. He's clever, very clever. Too clever maybe. Well if I'm right, then it's working. Thats for sure. Of course nothing I say matters anyway since I have he paranoid diagnosis anyway. But the whole thing isnt helping my mind.

I'm sorry, this is your thread, not my personal journal, how are you feeling about her now though? Still hyper? I'm still hyper from meeting him 3 months later, despite my little rant there. I've tried and tried to stay away from him and his page but he's too addictive! (Yes its his fault, not mine lol) I'd still support the band and the other guys but so much drama about the same thing, day in day out. And by defending his right to say or not as he wants, I'm sustaining the topic which is the opposite of my intentions. I can't win and I can't keep quiet (thats his fault too) and he must hate me so much. Ugh, I'm just SO annoying.