Art's slightly tipsy post has given me my nightly giggle, so lighthearted and awesome! I've been through the wringer this week: big fight with DD1; avoiding bill collectors by 3 different phone numbers, and getting calls from annoyed friends and relatives; closing bank accounts and praying my paycheck would still make it intact; and today filling out the Massive List of Debts.

Since I'm a hoarder (no offense intended to hoarders) I have bags and boxes of old mail I've never opened (anxiety won't allow me to read the damn bills, just keep worrying over my imagination!) dating back to 2010!!!!!

Tomorrow I'm taking a business-envelope sized box to work to sort through what they need to see and what really badly needs to be shredded. I'm still missing a few contracts and agreements, but no way am I contacting them for copies!!! I'm having a quasi-panic attack just doing this much. Inanimate objects frighten me, humans might actually destroy me!!!

Tomorrow I'm finishing up paperwork and doing "credit counseling" that's mandatory, where was that when I really needed it??!! Then Friday is the appointment to part with a lot of my money, in order to part with a lot less of my money over the next few years.

Trying to fight shame and guilt around this sucks! People rob and maim and generally deserve a whooping, and I'm feeling guilty about cheating the credit card company out of interest payments. [emoji35]