I've been very irritated by new T trying to diagnose me bipolar.

But she said my hobby hopping can be seen as hypomanic episodes, asked if I ever stop them before finishing them. I don't-I go all in, BUY everything I need to engage in the activity, do it for three months, six months or a year, whatever- lose interest (get depressed) and do nothing for awhile, then eventually I get into something else, or go back to an earlier hobby (sewing, gardening, hiking, exercising, photography, horse riding lessons (groupon!!) etc)

IS that hypomania?

So, I was sitting in my abnormal psych class half paying attention and perusing offerup for cheap power tools (drill, jigsaw, heat gun) when it suddenly popped into my head that these purchases (however cheap) are essentially unnecessary bc I don't HAVE to garden in this way- (garden barrel) and thus the behavior could be construed as "inappropriate or reckless spending"

So far during this....new hobby, I have spent money on:

25 strawberry plants: $17.99
Two 55 gallon barrels: $20
Four 15 gallon barrels: $20
PVC Pipe: $8
Lid:$2
Plug: $6

Still need:
Makita Drill + Charger: $20
Jig saw: $20
Heat gun: $20 (May be able to use my crafting heat gun and not need this.)

So I could buy all this stuff and make my buckets, but the cost of tools is high, and I probably won't use them again for a really long time, and it may make more sense to just buy an already built one I found online for $100, OR pay a guy $100 to build me two of them using HIS tools, so I don't have to buy any.

Or I could try to borrow the tools from my neighbor who is likely to have them and be willing to lend them to me.

The thing is, maybe it IS a bipolar/borderline symptom that I spend this money?

Where is the line between spending money on myself bc I deserve it/want to, and spending recklessly and having it be a symptom of a disorder?

I do technically have it to spend (loan money) but I can't decide if the reason I feel guilty about buying what I want for a hobby that brings me pleasure is bc it's really inappropriate or because I feel guilty about not spending it on my mom.

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