Aloha Galaxy,

Oh yeah, I'm where you're at right now... I decided to do PHP despite my knowledge that it really will not (and can not) help me due to total anhedonic state for 7-years. Ive been going 3 weeks now and trying to make the best of it because it IS keeping me accountable to get out and DO something/anything and I actually have learned a couple new coping skills. Most days however I feel like a terminal cancer patient attending a cancer survivors group. I DO watch people get "better" and although I'm happy for them, it reminds me how ****ing sick I am... Hummm, now that I think about it...maybe IP IS a better idea?