I think you said how you feel pretty well here and that's what you should tell your therapist. It doesn't matter if it has been 10 minutes or 10 years, shocking death is hard. Someone I hadn't seen since high school died of cancer about 5 years ago. I knew it was coming but when I got the email that morning I literally fell on the floor crying, knowing what the world had lost in this amazing woman who was an amazing girl when we were growing up. A teacher from my high school died in his sleep at a very young age about 3 months ago. He was a coach which was how I knew him. He was one of the kindest, my caring people ever. He'd had a prior brain aneurysm and he just didn't wake up so presumably he had a massive stroke in his sleep. Even after 2 months people still update his facebook page with messages about things he would like, how much he is missed, things that remind them of him, or of times he was kind to them, every day. I still cry when I think of that loss and again I hadn't seen him since high school which was over 20 years ago.

This is one more thing to take one day at a time. You are going to make it through this, it's just so hard right now.