Thanks everyone for helping me feel downright 'normal'. Means a lot to me.

I have had psychotic symptoms before but not to this degree and they usually pass quickly. This seems to be hanging around. At times I am quite lucid and rational but other times I belief the crazy stuff my mind feeds me. All the time though I feel very dissociated and detached from reality, as if I am separate from my body. It could be PTSD related. It is hard to tell the difference sometimes. The psychosis though is definitely the BP as it only happens during episodes, usually mixed. I really don't want to end up in hospital. I have my last exam for the semester tomorrow (I know, trying to do exams like this is a challenge!) and have lots of plans for my uni break. Hopefully my pdoc will help me find ways to get on top of this at home. Nothing feels real, this is so damn weird. I am not even sure if I exist...if that makes any sense. Guess i will just breathe and ride it out. It should pass when the BP cycles on.