From your post, this seems more about you needing to feel you accomplish something And feel successful. It is ironic that I have heard 2 times know (from watching tv) about people that says bring successful feels good. Then I heard another thing about success being about your own definition of what is successful to you. Maybe having a great family is one or a skill...i don't know what it is for you...maybe it is some connection with God or something that others don't have...something... You just need to feel successful at something. It's more than just a job. People loss jobs, business owners loss clients or loss huge chunks of money or their business...sucess is more than a job....I hope this makes sense.