I've had anorexia since I was 12, and I'm 16 now. In the beginning it was really bad, and then I got better for a year or so, but now I fear it's getting bad again. My older sister who is 19 wants me to get a feeding tube now. And I've been to the hospital 7 times already this year.

Also I feel like no one understands sometimes, like everyone tells me 'You need to eat to stay alive.' And I know that is true but it's incredibly hard to explain to them that you know that, but you just can't make things work.

Also sometimes when I talk about these type of things in depth to my sister it triggers me and I feel I have to purge because I think about the whole picture...idk I don't think I'm making much sense.