Thanks, im just so scared, it doesn't feel like this is possible in my life, ive always done the "right" thing, People would be shocked if they knew how I felt inside, it gets really tiring to hide who you are, and living the way people are used to you being, the thought of me possibly been hooked on these pills is something I'm trying to see as not such a bad thing and i can stop if i want to then when i think ok what if i stop and then im too scared to, i suppose i can't acknowledge i do have a problem, when did i get so messed up. Thanks for your reply appreciated it