I am newly diagnosed as Bi Polar, still waiting for full / further Eval to understand better which level or degree of BP. (possible trigger warning)

I was wondering how can I figure out when I am in mania, normal, and depression as tracking it might help figure it out. After reading some and learning, I see the signs. I feel a bit better now that I am starting mood stabilizer in combo w/ my anti-dep.. not nearly good yet. Initial Pdoc eval was BP (but not BP1) and that is all she said. I need to work w/ therapist and Pdoc more I think.

Also, a small victory last night worth sharing: I had a really bad 'anxiety/rage attack' approaching last night and typically this would very rapidly escalate from some mundane issue (the temperature on the thermostat)... to a really big F deal causing a night, or days of horror. I forced myself away from the situation as best as I could, I distracted myself, I coped as best as possible and I took a sleeping pill and even though my thoughts raced and I was scared- I went to sleep. In the morning, my partner admitted that he was lying there pretending to sleep- scared i would really escalate, like in the past, he was scared/anxious but gave me big kudos for calming myself and felt it was progress.. And this is just the beginning. He is sooo wonderful, willing to read and learn about what its like to live / love a BP woman. I am fortunate, yet in the back of my mind there is a lot of fear... that he will freak out and leave me since this is newly diagnosed. He thought was just dealing w/ my eating disorder... and now this. This is a big deal.

Anyhow to the topic - Just wondering how I can figure out when i feel manic, or depressive and normal. I feel like my memory is so bad and my brain so foggy often, it is hard to really get in touch w/ what it is im feeling. I actually thought I never experienced depression at all, until recently I learned that I most certainly have according to symptoms. Same with hallucinations- i have had them on/off for years. Never knew it wasn't normal to hear things, see things... like that.

Input or book recommendations are appreciated.