Hi Renounced,

Although I am sorry you're struggling welcome back
And with "I tried and failed", a lot more emphasis on the TRIED there, hey??!!
You did manage to try and that was fantastic!!
It's just that sometimes depression came come in ebbs and flows, so I don't even think you've failed, more about it hasn't finished/you haven't quite made it yet.
But keep trying, just maybe lower those expectations of yourself a little for now?? Sometimes when things are real bad even very small achievements are big successes.
So yes, don't go underselling what you're going through/coping with.........depression is a million miles away from "silly sadness", and you have every reason already to deserve people being kind, caring, compassionate.......towards you
And your concerns about pushing your friend away by being "annoying" or "complaining", well I haven't once agreed with you on that yet, right??!!
So maybe she isn't seeing you that way either??
Sometimes depression can have us thinking/believing the very worse of ourselves, yet from the outside/outside of those thoughts/feelings can be a completely different picture.
But..........if you are really worried then maybe you could share more things with us?? Not at all saying don't share that much with her, but maybe there are some things it may help to share on here a little more???
Try to "balance" how much you're helping your friend though, if she's feeling down........sometimes it can actually really help a lot to help someone else, but there can be times/limits where it can pull you back to feeling............too, just a bit of self monitoring on that, hey??
Because sometimes there's only so much you can do, and you matter too!!!
And sending you (more!!) hugs:


Alison