Probably the only reason I'm bringing this up is just for conversation or if anyone else has the same kind of feelings about a particular fetish.

I'm a gainer, an admirer and an encourager in the "fat community". There, I said it. I've been a weightlifter for over 20 years and always had a problem getting my weight down. I tried everything from keto to Weight Watchers to simple portion control to cardio to high intensity workouts to... you name it. I'm tired of dieting and trying to lose weight. I'm not a bodybuilder, I never will be, I don't want to be. I like to eat.

And all this time I've had an attraction to fat guys, whether muscle bears, non-muscle bears, regular fat guys. They're a complete turn on for me. Btw, "fat" is not a dirty word. We've reclaimed it. If you think of how the late Billy Mays looked (OK, so turn down the volume)... oh woof! Secretly I'd have given a kidney to look like him. There's a guy at work in my area who is short, barrel shaped, and hot-looking as hell because of it. Sort of the build I want.

I'm 5'5", currently 225 lbs, 17" biceps, 18" neck, 47-48" chest, though I take a 50S jacket now. I'm currently in 42 waist pants, which are getting snug. And here's the thing... I want to gain more. Not to the point of extreme obesity, immobility or poor health. Though many guys want that. No, my goal is ~250 lbs, 44-46 pants. I want to add more muscle too. I check my blood sugar at home. I'm not diabetic, but my late m-i-l was, so we've got glucose meters by the score. I get regular check ups and blood work by my doctor. So far so good.

I've already gained about 9 lbs in the past 3 weeks, and here's another thing... I'm proud of my bear belly. I don't suck it in, I don't hide it. I show it with pride. It's like being let out of a cage. Being bipolar I thought this might be a manic phase, but I've been feeling this way for far too long. I've simply decided to let go and be who I think I really am... a short, fat muscle bear. My new saying is "Rock the bear belly and rock it proudly".

OK, so that's all I wanted to say.