Hi Renounced,

Well, really well done on that "little" stuff you managed to achieve!!!
With depression sometimes "little" achievements which you wouldn't otherwise have accomplished, can take a lot out of you. A lot more than you might think/expect. But just don't lose sight of what you have done.
Maybe right now your body/mind are saying "enough!!!", but that doesn't need to mean that you can't start pushing those boundaries again when you're able to. And maybe just a little bit further when the time comes. Perhaps some focus on "pacing" yourself might help then as well???

And the feeling of helplessness...........so common in depression
It's not "just" that in not being able to talk to your family though, is it?? From what you've said they haven't seemed that understanding of depression before........but maybe if you could try telling them just a little????
And..........."...........not being able to help myself, and so much more that is caused by the act of giving up".............but you are helping yourself, you aren't giving up
You're talking to us on here, right?? You're reaching out for understanding, help, support, right?? Now those are massive steps to take!!!
So good on you Renounced!!!!
Be real proud of yourself for that "little" stuff you managed to achieve, and for coming back to us now when you're needing to!!!



Alison