Just a quick rant, I have been carrying this for a while.

The presence of this challenging thought increases every day. It has to do with the feeling that I'm getting more crazier with each day, as if one day I'm gonna 'lose' it.

It's a controversy; my commitments and responsibilities are huge part of what ignites me to strive, but at times it's such a burden that I don't want to carry, as if it has nothing to do with me, you know ?
This ambivalence. Enormous gratitude for what I have accumulated and achieved through this journey of life, and yet at times hating it for I can't let everything go and just give in. surrender

It's boiling