I'm in between doctors. My appointment with my new pdoc isn't until july sixteenth. I'm very unstable and suicidal. In patient is out of the question.

What should I do?!

I don't know what to do!!! I don't have anyone to call! Should I call my GP? I think she'd just want to put me on an antidepressant or something, or tell me she's not comfortable prescribing me anything.

I've never been this depressed before. It's like there's this huge weight on me. I feel like my bottom has fallen out (sorry, that sounds kind of weird), and I'm just falling down and down and down, and there's no end. My chest hurts.

We went to a nature preserve today, and in their building full of stuffed dead animals (really disturbing) there was this live exotic bird (It wasn't a parrot. It was some other kind of bird), but it was really pretty, green and yellow and red, and it was in this tiny little cage, and it was SAD. The thing was frickin depressed. Seriously. And it was shaking, like it was scared. I wanted to cry. If I was a bird, I'd be that bird. Seriously.

That's my great analogy.

Seriously.