Hello everyone. Before I start, I just want to thank everyone who is taking their time and reading this "worried" post of mine and I hope that someone will be able to answer it in order to finally remove the heavy sack of fear and worry which has settled into my brain.
Well, I will begin now, I suppose.
I am currently a student in Europe and all the problems started just a few months ago. I just got into a new study-plan and the conditions (referring to the amount of effort one has to put into one's studying) have ultimately strickened. So I began to study. A lot. I have been studying for around 6-7 hours a day, every day, no breaks (not even in the holidays) and all this was just an incredibly big change for me, since I had never studied that much in my entire life. But everything would probably be fine if only all these study schedules would not (very soon) start to interfere with my sleep. I had been sleeping less and less every day and for the entire year I think I have only been sleeping for around 5 hours (not even mentioning the endless cups of coffee) a night. This, is where it began. I noticed that each day I was more and more tired, quick-tempered, sad and just....just empty. About a few weeks ago I couldn't even think normally anymore. And this is what is currently happening. I am completely blocked, I cannot think logically at all, it's like I can't even connect pieces of a story together when I watch a movie for example or read something. I have also started forgeting things really fast and it is really scaring me. Every time, every SINGLE TIME I try to read or watch something, this scary thought jumps in my head, saying "Will you even understand it"...I can't think through any complex tasks clearly, because I become so afraid of not making it and I become scared for every mistake I make in any kind of thinking process. It just feels like my brain doesn't function normal anymore, I mean I can't THINK normally, nothing is even funny anymore because I am just so, so scared that I am getting dumber every day and such thoughts even made me just scream or fall on the bed and cry. Can somebody, anybody please tell me what is all this and will a rest (we have the long holidays now) help, because I don't know how much longer I can hold all that, until I start going insane of all the fear and brain blocks. I, once again, thank you very very much for reading this post and, if you have, answering it.
P.S. When I told about it to my friend, he told me to do sports in order to get oxygen into my brain, do you thinm that might help?
Thank You.