Thanks, you crack me up!
Unfortunately no, I haven't really healed from all that stuff. I'm trying to "act" normal hoping that it will stick and I'll start to fell better about it, but it hasn't happened yet. Something often triggers it where I get all upset all over again. Like today for example. I've been going through old photos, and have seen some glimpses of myself as a child in these photos. I found a small stack (less than 20) that I wanted to bring in and show her. But, I wanted to look at them WITH her, so I could explain the photos. Then I freaked out (internally) at the thought of asking her to sit by me so we could flip through these photos. Because, of course, her new boundary is to not sit by me. I once told her she could, and I wouldn't touch her. She said she didn't think that was a good idea. So although I would love to sit side by side for a couple minutes to explain these photos, I'm afraid she may see it as I'm testing her boundary. So I've been holding onto these photos, not sharing at all. I get very irritated, because I wouldn't be thinking anything at all with anyone else. Just sit down and look at them. But I'm scared to ask her. I could just hand them over and stand in front of her and explain them while looking at them upside down......so something like that gets me thinking all over again.