I've been having very extreme anxiety the worst its ever been. The tiredness is awful and I want to sleep all day. I hear death screams in one ear representing my moms many surgeries (she has every year and nearly dies) and dad just recently lost his job and Intel could f themselves and liar scum. I don't see the purpose of getting up with the exception of checking the Internet but otherwise its pointless like my f- up life. See that cardboard box on the corner? See the rainstorm approaching? It is going to be above me and that represents my future and I am psychic. When I heard about the layoffs on the news and I told dad he is going to be one of them. I am GOD of predictions. We just moved here 6 months ago, just settling in. Although the scum who sold us the house (he wanted to kill us {not a delusion he deliberately blocked the house inspector from deadly electrical issues}) now we have to move again. Here's what i see. We move within a year to a dump. Next mom dies. Then dad dies. Then the house goes away and since I have the mental health issues and can't keep going I end up on the street. I see it with perfect clarity. Once again I am GOD of predictions. My own life. I see it all. The weight on me is too much. Crushing me under all of it. It's nothing now since I don't exist because the weight crushed me and I'm nothing. Constant panic attacks and can't breathe. Speaking of breathing, I found out I have sleep apnea. I have to have a CPAP machine. See the stock market? The Nasdaq recently hit record highs, God is mocking us and laughing. The finger from the sky is pointing at my worthlessness. The lesson is don't trust another human being. It ain't worth it because if you don't trust then you won't be surprised if they stab you in the back. All life is pain. My brother continues to live in a fantasy world thinking homes are handed to you for FREE. He also thinks there's nothing to be stressed about!