I've never been worthy or deserving of the good things in life. I always carry immense guilt with me. The kids have been in foster care for 9 months due to my hospitalization. My husband was diagnosed with Stage IV colon cancer, and I wasn't readily available for him. The judge at my hearing last week gave me an incredibly light sentence. If I get a "break" in life, I don't deserve it and feel guilty. And if I don't get a "break", thats ok , because I don't deserve it. Why do I feel better when no one shows compassion, understanding or kindness? I just can't understand this anymore

Dee