I wish I could stop screwing up every damn thing in my life. I screwed up ANOTHER date because I can't pick up on cues. Why am I so messed up that it has to be beaten over me with a sledgehammer to get it? And I f----d up on a job interview because I was too worried about my body language.

All I hear is be yourself. Well being myself is being a brain dead 33 year old loveless virgin. Kill me now if this is how it must be. I can't have one good thing happen over sustained time.