Hello!!

You don't need to worry, you're not wasting our time, if so, then the same should be said about the thousands upon thousands upon thousands of other posts!!

Depression makes you feel numb and unable to do the most simple daily task, because you're so drained and sad, and just hopeless, but you're also overthinking a problem, or problems, or just overthinking your entire life in general, and your depression will call you stupid, careless and helpless, but you're really not!! I used to read books, draw, play different games from different genres, and now I just don't do it because I feel hopeless and just useless, not to mention completely numb and lazy, and I haven't left home to do for ages, something as simple as going to the cinema is painful to do, so I really understand your frustration

Are you seeing a therapist though?