I think that the bad experience of recent that you've been having - her repeatedly not returning your communication is leading to some intrusive thoughts ... at the end of the day - it's somewhat of a symbiotic relationship: as much as you have a need to work productively with your pdoc ... the sad reality is, she needs you as a client too ... because you are contributing towards her income, which pays for her mortgage, her car, etc ... not a nice thought - but overall just bear in mind I don't think repeated requests for this med would be reason enough within itself for her to dismiss you as a patient - I think that there are people who have done far "worse" ... and their pdocs continue to see them. (Worse is not the right term - but it's being used for illustration purposes only )

Yeah she probably is going to pick up on symptoms and diagnose you as sitting somewhere on the Bipolar spectrum, as she did when she last said that you were experiencing dysphoric mania. Ughhh those auto reply "out of office" when you really need to contact someone are a charm

Okay that is a bugger that she had to stop seeing 50% of her patients when she took on the new job. Well, I don't really think that she'd regret keeping you. Again, I just can't see anything that you've done wrong or so to speak. I think that every pdoc's ultimate goal is to get us as near as possible to the relative term "stable". Otherwise I'm not sure what we are paying them for.

Thank you for asking how I am.

I don't talk about how I am much As you noticed