I can relate to you as the outsider. Even when I am around people, and carry on conversations with them, I many times don't relate at all. I do pretend a lot, but sometimes a person comes along that thinks similar to me. How I deal with it is when I do not relate I try to view it as being diverse, in nature and personality. I also talk about sad things a lot but just try to do your best, that is good enough, in m opinion. Solitude is hard I so agree..