Thanks Sky - It was T's mature thought. It's calmed me down a little bit - hopefully enough to last til Monday. Now I'm worried that he'll be unhappy about the little gift I put together. I guess I'm worrying about everything. If only it were over and things were settled again. It's already been 2.5 weeks of torture for me and by the time I will see him it will have been 3 weeks of nearly constant desperate panic. The confusing part for me is how volatile I can be - I'll be fine and not thinking about it and then all of a sudden I'm floored again and thinking desperately. Torture is not too strong a word - I feel like I'm being ripped away from safety and security. I've already gone a little mad and sent an angry fax to his boss-actually I think it might have been three, I'm not sure. Eek. I just lose it. As much as I dread it, Monday can't come too soon.