My first 6 months of weekly therapy was extremely difficult. I had never really cried in front of anyone and cried in front of everyone to the point of having to leave work because I couldn't contain myself. I was too embarrassed to ask for more help and the first 3 months I was going maybe every 1.5 weeks. I also couldn't name my feelings so I would go in my sessions and say "I feel miserable" but I couldn't go any further. It was difficult for both me and T. As I moved to weekly, it was still difficult to have the therapy hangover. So, I would journal every day and give myself little projects like trying to figure out a feeling I was having. I still cried all the time but maybe felt more in control sometimes?

I did ask for another session once and it helped - I had to get a specific topic off my chest. I haven't asked again although I think I could. I felt like if I could somewhat function, then I had to learn to sit with the feelings and process them. I talked to her about feeling alone in all of it and wanting her to be there when I was upset. She reminded me that most of the processing happens outside of the session.

My T. is also one that doesn't text or email. Now, I still feel sad/hurt/longing in between sessions but I know I can make it. I can usually figure out WHY I feel that way which also helps vs feeling horrible and not understanding why.

I think I rambled and maybe this hasn't helped. I don't think there's a right or wrong way to do it. If you are just now dealing with suppressed feelings, you may not be able to see your T. enough to feel better. That's how I felt. Hugs to you - I know how horrible it feels!